He suggests that the archives of his childhood have disappeared and that all he has left are good memories. The line between dreams and memories begins to blur and Winston finds himself daydreaming about his past, which leaves him in a position of neglect in the face of the Thought Police. Winston becomes more and more unstable from the Party's point of view. In the next chapter, Winston was tasked with changing the files to fit the Party's ideology. Winston shows yet another instance of independent autonomy as he reflects on his actions while working for the Ministry of Truth. Later in the book, Winston fantasizes about sexual encounters and his many fantasies. He wrote in his diary: “Why couldn't he have his own wife instead of these dirty fights every few years? But a true love story was an almost unthinkable event. The women of the Party were all the same. Chastity was as deeply rooted in them as loyalty to the Party” (38). This implies that the Party deeply hates sexual encounters and the idea of ​​a sexual relationship, which is even more dehumanizing.