You never know when you fall in love. Because, as they say, love happens in the most unexpected places and at unexpected times. I'm pretty sure you know the lines. Well... that's not wrong. But I didn't believe it until 5 months ago. Because the stories that happened around me never gave me the chance to believe in true love. At first, people would act like they can't live without the person they love and after a few months, they would hate them more than anyone else in this world. How can you hate the same person you loved so much. It’s not love…at least not in my world. Say no to plagiarism. Get a tailor-made essay on “Why violent video games should not be banned”?Get an original essayWhat I think about love is being caring, willing to be there for that person no matter what, try to spend as much time as possible hanging. going out, talking or texting like you never want it to end forever, sparks or heart starts beating faster when that person looks at you or stands in front of you and you lose words or sometimes you can't Don't even look at that person because you're too shy to do that. Simple but precious little things. But at the same time, keep in mind that most of us fail to do the same in return for the person you are in love with. Because that's where love fails but never ends. So what made me believe in love? I would describe myself as a bit of a tomboy and I'm sure that's what everyone thinks of me. Thin, tough, no fear. No one can imagine me falling in love with a man. Me neither. I never showed any interest in these things. And I continue to act like one and people think the same thing about me. Except a few like some of my best friends. Believe me, they still have a hard time believing it. I remember it was January 2016 when I first saw it. Or maybe I had done it before, but this was the first time I had my eyes on him. And no..!! I don't say his name. Let's call him here by Mr. Kind. So, Mr. Kind and his team were on the field practicing cricket. And I was there too for some reason. My eyes just caught Mr. Kind, looking so much like a professional cricket player. It was definitely cricket that attracted me to him in the first place and I wanted to know more about his game. Believe me, I just wanted to know him as a player of the sport I love. I stood there watching him practice until it passed. When my best friend finished his practice and we were ready to go home, I asked him about Mr. Kind on the way. He told me his name and the next thing I knew I wanted to know more about him. After that day, several days passed in the same way, I watched him play but I hadn't learned anything new about him. I'll be honest... By the end of the cricket season I had completely forgotten about it. One of the funniest things that ever happened and I didn't even realize I had texted him later that year in November about industrial training. That was the first conversation we had, exactly two conversations via message and that was it. A year passed, we still had no conversation. Neither by texting nor face to face. I just watched it from afar. And at the same time, I started to have a crush on him. But it was just a crush. This has happened to me so many times before. It's not serious. I was allactually agree with that. It was September 2017 when I decided to start playing cricket again. Before… a long time ago, but this time I was looking for better clubs. I thought I'd ask Mr. Kind because he probably has quite a few ideas about this and it was the perfect excuse for me to start a conversion with him. The conversation went very well. He was a nice person. He still is. One of his messages that I remember and will never forget was… “Your wish and my hard work will definitely make this day come soon.” » He told me this after I told him that one day he would probably play for the state team. This message made me feel pretty special. Although I know he didn't mean it that way, but from my point of view it is. Since that day, there hasn't been a day when my eyes weren't searching for him when I was in college. And surprisingly, there wasn't a single day I didn't see him... even if it was for once. Is it destiny? I really don't know because it was very unusual for a crush. It has never happened like this before. But yeah…we still haven’t exchanged a single word face to face. The first time we said something to each other…well, him, not me, was during my cricket practice. I was hitting and he came from behind and said 'Beat!!'. I just handed over my bat so he could grind the stumps and handed it back to me. As always, I didn't say a single word. This made me regret it for a long time. There were few times when my friends and I talked about him...and they kept pressuring me to accept the fact that I just don't have a crush on him, I'm in love with him. I won't believe him because I thought I knew I wasn't until the day I realized I was in love with him the whole time. There were little things pointing out along the way, but I was the one who didn't understand that. The day I realized was the day of my cricket match where he was made the leg umpire. Mr. Kind... one day if you read this, even though I know it wasn't your fault and I don't blame you at all, that cricket match was the most entertaining match of my life. I've never felt so nervous before. But what happened that day, the feelings made me wonder if what I have for him was more than just a crush... I'm usually very open about my feelings, but this time the feelings were different. I couldn't tell people what I was facing. Not even my close friends. Even if I had, they couldn't have helped me. The only way was if I could talk to Mr. Kind. I didn't have to wait much longer to finally talk to him. Just after a month, both of us went to a place regarding the farewell arrangements of our respective departments. Accompanied by two other friends of course. This day was the happiest day of my life. Why wouldn't it be? I talked to him for the first time and then spent about 4 hours with him. I had a lot of fun, new experiences and so much laughter. And I didn't want it to end. I guess I got my wish. Because we came back very late. I can't write about all the crazy things that happened. But that day, I realized what it means to be in love and what it feels like to spend time with that person, even if it's just for a few hours. I always wanted to confess my feelings to him but in my mind there was always thinking about what would happen if he never wanted to talk to me again. We still have a year of college life left, how was I going to cope with him? I didn't want this.